Won't Be

And when I wake up tomorrow
you won't be here anymore.

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HAHA Caught red handed :P

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All The Wrong Reasons

So there was this stunningly *psssssstttt* chic who joined us.
CHUN WEI! HOT STUFF WEI! Whatever. That isn't the point.
And before she came, I've never seen these guys attending.
and now that she is here...I see them coming every week.

I couldn't bother more about their obvious intentions.
Hot chic, everyone wants a shot, you do the math.
What troubles me was my thoughts

"They come not because of the main focus of the
meeting, but because she was there. Coming for meetings
motivated by all the wrong reasons"

And I've talked about this to a friend of mine.
The question that got us thinking was this...

"Is not going at all better than going for the wrong reasons?"

I thought of this and yeah I say that
my brain kinda tells me it is better not to go at all.
But in the car just now, we discussed about this again.

And all of a sudden, God reminded me of myself.
The story of my own life...cleared my doubts.

::Rewind Theater::

Before this, for a period of 3 years, I haven't been to church.
But I still going around saying I'm a 'Christian'.
Nothing to be proud of.

In 2009, I secretly admire this girl named 'Jane' in my tuition class.
Started talking abit..then one day she invited me to a church event
"Agape Day", in conjunction with Valentine's Day.

The Invitation

HUAT AH! *exaggerating LOL* and so I went.
The meeting was good, heard a good message and that was it.
After meeting, get to talk to her...song~

Then 'Jane' asked if I was interested to come for the YP meeting
I started asking details. I WANT TO GO!
And my reason is simply cause she'll be there.
I get to see her twice a week now...Yay shiok gila babi habis!

Because of 'Jane'...
My Saturday CoD sessions were dumped to the side,
so that I can go for YP meetings...
For the record, I haven't miss one YP meeting since then.

That was how "motivated" I was.
But sadly, motivated by all the wrong reasons. *sigh*
Later on I started attending Lord's Supper as well.
And of course, partly because of the wrong reasons. *sigh*
I feel like slapping myself for being a douche. *sigh & slap*

But slowly God works in me, bring me to realization
of my real and main focus of the meetings that I've been attending
all this while. No, not 'Jane'. But God and God alone. And since then,
setting God as the main focus, meetings weren't the same
because He is why I was there.

My own life story cleared my doubts of that question.
I see it as it better for one to come, even if it is for the wrong reasons,
better than not coming at all. For who knows, God can turn things around
and change him/her inside out like how He changed me.

I may have started off with the wrong reasons,
but I thank the Lord for who I am today.

"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You, God"

Today

I'd like to take a moment
and thank You for today