I Miss You

First time listening to this song although I'm a huge fan of Incubus.
Simply cause this song isn't in any of their albums that I have.
Amazing as always.

17:17 on 17th

A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

- Proverbs 17:17 -

I woke up this morning having visualized long and tiring schedule in my head
the moment I open my eyes. Class has started, and at the same time, I have to gear up for my supplementary paper which is most probably this Thursday, or not, on Friday.

I forced myself up at 8, did my devotion and then off to the world of Mathematica.
Slain some differential peons and 15 minutes into game, my brain just couldn't take it.
It felt so heavy so I decided to back to bed at 9.

I woke up 12 minutes later from a sms from a friend. Spent some time reading it and was very touched and encouraged at the same time to push on forward for the rest of the day. Out of bed and to the study table again. Class starts at 12 so I got a couple of hours to slain more mathematicians
(as in citizens of Mathematica, not human mathematicians LOL. Lame.)

Not too long later, another friend, came and talk to me on the online messenger.
He started the conversation with this:

"Beh yau kin la
fail liau hafto stand up back
mai hao
lai koko sayang"

Translation:
Nevermind lah
Failed already have to stand back up
Don't Cry
(And this part I don't really know how to put it LOL)

Basically...
Lai - Come
Koko - Elder brother
Sayang - Comfort/love

Go figure.

Upon reading that, it cheered me up and made my day haha.
I just laughed so hard in from of the monitor cause
those lines are usually said by a mum to a child.
Well, change the 'koko' to mama/mummy/mum.

The day goes on as usual, classes (am glad to see familiar faces in class)
and then at night, its the library camping time again. Had a very early dinner, like 5.40+pm and headed to the library at around 7 pm.

Toiled and toiled and of course the stomach start making noise and I was already starting making plans of where to get food. So the mind has been set, Cyberia Mart - Bread. It was 11.15-ish when I was about done and gonna leave when a friend called.

He said he just wanna visit me and he was at my house front door.
Told him I'm still at the library and he said he'll meet me half way.
So packed my stuff and headed for home. Met my friend just outside the Cyberia back gate
and he passed me a paper bag, in it was FOOD!
Ahh food! I was just so happy at that moment. *Noms noms noms*

On the way back, there was just a big smile on my face and I just kept thanking the LORD
for my friends in my heart. Then back home, another friend sent another sms of encouragement. Again, I thanked the Lord over and over for the wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ that I have.

At this moment even as I am writing all of this out,
I really feel blessed with the awesome friends that I have.
What would I do without them. Thank you Lord =)

Funny, the verse on top, Proverbs 17:17. and the date this all happened is the 17th. Heh heh.

Not An Option

Been a pretty long day really.
Visited Logos Hope today with the KGC peeps.
Got a couple of good books and a few CDs at a pretty cheap price.
And I went for the ship tour which is really interesting really.
Got to know a lil bit of how everything runs or go about in the ship.

The one that was pretty interesting was about dating
among the crew members haha. Where if a guy/girl crew would
like to date another girl/guy crew, he/she have to go through the
'guys' leader' and then the message will be passed to the 'girls' leader'
and the matchmaking process goes on from there. LOL.

So thats the happy part and well, it lasted till 6 pm when my
results were finally updated with the grades. Failed my engineering maths paper.
Which I really didn't see it coming cause I thought I did okay for that paper
but it was the other way round when I saw I passed my programming paper.

I don't know how to tell my parents really.
Growing up with a "Failure is not an option" dad,
telling him about this is like digging my own grave.
But I told him anyway. Through sms.

The call came an hour later when I was a the supermarket
picking up some bottles of water and some daily essentials.
Got a good drilling from dad, but it was all necessary.

I could have gone through with dad all the
"In my shoes, just to see, What it's like, to be me"
but I didn't. Cause deep down I know I screwed myself up.
From procrastination, hours thrown out the window
From gaming addiction, hours thrown out the window

Spent some alone time in the car.
Rain, tears and prayers, go figure.
That emo really. Not joking.

Praised and gave thanks to the LORD nonetheless for everything.
How I made it through 'Hell Week', all praise to Him.
The other 4 papers which I passed, all praise to Him.
The wake up call, gave thanks.

After that I head back to my weekend home and here I am,
ranting....so I can feel a lil better after pouring my heart out.
Argh! Time to gear up for the supplementary paper!
BRING ETTTTTTTTT ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!


On quite related stuff, I read this quote from Jup kor's email moments ago.

Trouble and prayer are closely related to each other. Prayer is of great value to trouble. Trouble often drives men to God in prayer, while prayer is but the voice of men in trouble. There is great value in prayer in the time of trouble. Prayer often delivers out of trouble, and still oftener gives strength to bear trouble, ministers comfort in trouble, and begets patience in the midst of trouble. Wise is he in the day of trouble who knows his true source of strength and who fails not to pray. (E.M. Bounds - The Essentials of Prayer)

Comforting. Encouraging.
Amazing how things 'happen by chance'.
Nope, I don't believe in chance :)